Hot, Hot, Hot!!!!!

If anyone ever asks me what kicks my ass I will tell them one word: Lupron.

The midol is wonderful for taking away the backache and the headache. Now I need a drug to tackle the new fun side effect: hot flashes.

It's like I kicked Lupron down for a round. And then Lupron was in the corner of the ring thinking it over and this is a glimpse of his thought process: "Hmmmm, that smart Greek teacher, she figured out how to get rid of the head-ache and the back-ache. What else can I pull out of my pocket? I know, my torch! Let me light this baby up and make her so hot she'll go even more crazier!" (And yes, I am aware that I just wrote "even more crazier" in the character of Lupron)

Today I would have been willing to take a cold shower in front of anyone. And I mean, anyone. If someone would have handed me a Delta faucet that extended, I would have gone for it. Stripped down and hosed myself down. Because, really, how the hell else do you handle a hot flash?

Tomorrow I start the stimulation drug of Gonal F. Good times, folks. Stay tuned for the battle of me and the synthetic hormones I am injecting into myself.

On another, positive note, according to my IVF protocol, I am only 12 days away from egg retrieval. And in all seriousness, there are worse things to go through than an IVF cycle. Aside from the hot flash, I am actually getting really excited about all of this.

Like, remember when I posted about the job I wanted and how it's crappy timing? I heard from a few of my colleagues who I think were scoping to see if I was applying and I am so glad to have not applied. I just feel so much better about it now. Work is like a political vortex and it feels so good to not get sucked in.

Also, I got a flyer in the mail today for Carter's/Osh Kosh and I actually looked at the baby clothing that they have on sale. Not the little boy stuff, the baby stuff. Because, you know, I just may need to get some because I actually may get pregnant.

There. I wrote it. I actually may get pregnant. I am finally allowing myself to dream it!